Oy, I’m too busy!

February 27th, 2009

So I’ve been stressing out a little bit lately.  I may have the opportunity to a promotion to manager of the Council Bluffs location of the restaurant I work in.  As of right now, I’m just working there  trying to figure things out while one of our owners and a former manager is acting as temporary manager.  Right now it’s just stressful because I’m trying to figure out where everything goes in this kitchen I’m not used to and I’m trying to figure out a routine of doing prep work and just running a shift.  Basically, I feel like I’m starting all over and expected to know what I’m doing pretty quickly.  Things are getting better, but there’s still a lack of communication so I feel like I don’t know where I stand.  I don’t know if I’m going to get this managerial position, but I still kind of have to act like a manager while trying not to step over any bounds of the temporary manager/part owner.

I can’t wait until this all gets figured out.  I’m not really thrilled about being the manager.  I mean it’s not something I’ve asspired to be.  I’m just excited about being a little more in control of my own job and driving only about half a mile to work as opposed to the aproximately 13 miles I’ve been driving twice a day for six days a week.   I’ve been trying to keep my mind occupied on hobbies or entertaining myself in some way when I’m off work, but my head just seems to be a tornado of thoughts about trying to get the various problems solved in that place.  I really can’t wait to get this all figured out.

I thought this only happened on cartoons.

December 8th, 2008

So I got this sweater that I really liked awhile back ago and loved it.  Nice and warm and quite stylish if I say so myself.  After I wore it once, I washed it in cold water with plans of letting it air dry and then fluff with no heat in the dryer so it wouldn’t shrink.  Well, I pulled it out of the wash and this is what happened:

I like them teeny and toasty

Upon further investigation, I finally managed to find a tag inside the body of the sweater on the seam that read “Dry clean only.”  With that newfound information, I broke down and bought another one with intentions of being a little more careful.  Now if anyone wants a tiny sweater, I have an extra one just lying around.

Happy Halloween!

October 30th, 2008

 

Dear God…

September 23rd, 2008

So I came home from work today to see a fucking praying mantis perched upon my mailbox.

 I decided to take some pictures of death in insect form.  It’s terrifying head followed my every movement.  I think I see some scratch marks on the side of the mail box, probably from when it attacked and ate an innocent passer-by.

 

Seriously, look at this fucking thing!

This only a  few days after discovering these monsters in my flowers and blocking the stairs to my front porch:

YEESH!

Awkardness and Anxiety

September 18th, 2008

I went to a funeral yesterday for my future “grandpa-in-law” who died unexpectedly this past weekend.  I really hate funerals.  I mean, there’s the obvious reasons why everyone hates funerals, but what bugs me so much is that I have no idea how to react to death.  Now, I’ve never had anyone die who was very close to me, but I’ve had relatives who I’ve known for a long time pass away.  Any time I hear about something like that, it feels very unreal to me.  I can never quite process that they are actually dead and gone.  Even at the funeral, it all feels so unreal.  It’s just so strange to see people crying who I’ve never seen cry before.  It’s also strange when they don’t cry.  In the case of yesterday, it’s very strange when it’s a group of people who I really don’t know that well at all.

After the service was over, everyone was supposed to get up row by row and express your sympathy to the family.  As I’m watching the sad faces ahead of me, I start to feel a little choked up myself(people crying in the movies often makes my eyes water as well).  I start to feel a little panicked, not because I’m embarassed that someone might see me cry, but because I kind of feel like I’m not supposed to be crying because I don’t really know this man at all.  I also start to feel incredibly anxious because I have no idea how to “express my sympathies.”

I’ve always felt with death, I have no idea what to say to someone.  When someone graduates you say “congratulations.”  When someone has a birthday you say “happy birthday.”  When someone accomplishes something great you say “good job.”  These kinds of things make a person feel good.  When someone dies you say “sorry for your loss.”  Those feel like incredibly useless words that can in no way comfort a person.  I have a hard enough time saying those other reassurances for reasons I don’t understand, and I feel especially awkward saying any of those things to people I hardly know.

As we went through the line and I stood behind Nikki as she comforted her family members,  all I could think about is how desperately I wanted to just run out of the place and go home.  The best I could do was utter a small “hi” as the grieving family members looked up at me.  I felt like such a complete moron and basically like a total ass.  What’s sad is that I know that even if these were my own family members that I’ve known all my life, I still would’ve reacted the same way.

One positive thing I did take out of this is that I did learn some pretty interesting things about a small town man who I previously knew very little about.  He seemed like he was a pretty great guy.

Dean Robert Larson
1923 - 2008

My New Car

August 29th, 2008

So I finally departed with my ‘99 Ford Escort or “Scortie” as I call her….as of now.  I am now the proud owner of an ‘07 Pontiac G6 which I enjoy quite well.

So yeah…I’ve really got nothing else to say about that.

 

I Got Nothing

July 25th, 2008

I haven’t posted in quite awhile and I really haven’t got much to say, but I did want to share this drawing I made a couple weks ago. It more or less started as just practicing using an image of a posed figure to draw off of. As I was drawing, I ended up turning it into a pencil sketch of Angel of the X-Men.

I’m usually not much for strictly using pencils. I grew up inking everything I drew in sort of the typical comic book style, so I’m pretty proud of how this turned out. I think this is also my first attempt at drawing wings with any sort of realism.

The Choice is Yours and Yours Alone

June 5th, 2008

I saw the coolest T-Shirt ever today at work. This girl came in and I instantly saw the shirt and thought to myself, “Holy shit, are those Blue Barracudas?” It indeed was. The girl wearing the t-shirt also had the kind of 80’s little boy mop-top sort of hairdo and some thick glasses. She may have been actual contestant on the show who had time traveled to present day, but I can’t be sure of that.

I’m Getting Too Old For This Shit

May 31st, 2008

I went with Nikki to a Dresden Dolls concert this past Wednesday in Kansas City. Looking back on the experience, I’ve realized how my age is starting to interfere with my concert-going experience. As the date of the show was getting closer and closer, I was starting to dread it more and more. It’s not that I don’t like the Dresden Dolls. I love them. In fact, they’re one of my favorite bands to see perform live. Whenever I see that a band I love is coming to town, I always feel like I have to go to the show rather than I want to. What I’ve realized is that the dread I feel is based on the pain and suffering of the actual concert experience.

Now, this may have nothing to do with my age. The suffering I feel at a concert may be due to the fact that I’m going to somewhat bigger shows now with bands that may not be on the radio, but they do have a big following. What is starting to kill my love for a live show is the fact that I have to stand outside in possibly inclement weather for an hour. I have to listen to the teenagers around me describe why they are the one true fan of the band we are about to enjoy. Once I have gotten into a concert, I am always somehow standing next to those same excited teenagers who are becoming increasingly more annoying. Once the show has started, a man who despite my own tall stature is towering above me and has stepped in front of me.

At this particular show, the weather outside was nice, and the annoying superfans didn’t end up near me until we were inside the “Ranch Bowl-esque” venue. They became increasingly more annoying when they stepped away and Nikki and I took their spot at the front of the stage which angered them. There were also some other superfans who are part of this Dresden Dolls fan club in which they get backstage passes, but felt that since they were in the club, they had the right to push and shove people to get to the front of the crowd. “It’s okay, we’re VIP.”

I don’t think I’m really asking for too much at a show. There are a lot of things the don’t bother me. I expect to be crowded and bumped into a little. I expect (although don’t understand) people to wave their fists or point their fingers to the beat of the song. I expect people to yell “I love you” to the band members, but sometimes this shit gets a little too much. Someone yelled during this show “Amanda Palmer for president!” which is obviously absurd, but whatever. Then a girl next to me yells “Brian Viglione for president!” Okay, basically, that jokes been done….like it was just done using Amanda’s name. A moment later, this same girl yells “Amanda for president!” Yeah, we fucking get it. You like the band. You think they should run the country just like someone else in the crowd. WE GET IT. This same chick also proceeded to try and get the band’s attention a few times while they were in the midst of playing a song. Jesus Christ, that shit is annoying. Why is it that the biggest fans are the ones who seem to be ruining the show?

The show was pretty good, but incredibly long. There was a KC band called “Medicine of Fury” or something like that. They were kind of odd and trippy. Just a drummer, a guitarist and a distorted microphone. I think I needed to be on drugs to have enjoyed that more. Next, there was some belly dancing group which was interesting. Then there was Smoosh who everyone should go check out. It’s made up of three girls who are like twelve years old from Seattle. They rocked. They have a lot of energy, and it’s good music. After them were a couple of pole dancers. It was more art/gymnastics than stripping. They were pretty impressive. Chicks made of solid muscle.

 

 

Finally was the Dresden Dolls who put on a two and a half hour show. They were very excellent. They opened with Pink Floyd’s “In the Flesh” and had a few other covers here and there as well. They didn’t play some of the songs that I would’ve liked to have seen, but they always put on a good show. Brian is always very expressive as he flies on the drum set, and Amanda’s voice is always powerful and emotional. They also make things more interesting by having Brian switch to guitar for a few songs, or adding Smoosh to play a couple songs. By the time the encore came, my body ached so much that I just wanted to go. Every show I go to, I’m wishing I could just skip the encore and leave, but I know I want to see more as well. They played “Half Jack” for their encore which is one of my favorites to see live because it involves a long introduction with some amazing drumming. I also hated it for the same reasons. Just as I am longing to be able to just sit down and relieve my knees and back, they play their longest song.

 

Looking back on the pain and suffering of the show and being awake for nearly 24 hours by the time we were almost out of gas and hoping to find an interstate exit with a gas station, it was well worth it as always. I do know that I’ll be dreading the next show just as much.

Your Mom Jokes are always Funny

May 13th, 2008

Guy at Work: These red peppers are too long.
Me: That’s what your mom said about my penis last night.  I ended up puncturing her kidney.
Guy at Work:  That’s okay.  I punctured your mom’s lung.